Journaling:

I never asked for depression to enter my life. I never even thought I was depressed. Yet I could not explain the emotional roller coaster that I was placed on. One moment I was perky and happy and the next moment I was a mess, with tears coming out of here and there. It was the little things that set it off. I could no longer control my emotions. My boyfriend at the time (now my husband) and I did not know what to think. Had I gone Crazy?

At first I did not tell anyone, except my boyfriend. (Who found out from having to put up with me... we lived together). Yet after a few days of taking the trip on the roller coaster of crazy emotions I was annoyed with it! And so was my boyfriend. My boyfriend told my father, whom than told my over protective mother.

My mother took me to the doctor, whom I had a long talk with. She at first thought that with my slight weight gain, my crazy emotions, and being hungry all the time that I may be pregnant. So she poked me and tested me for pregnancy. Than she also tested me for diabetes, since it ran in my family. Both tests came back negative.

After a half an hour talk with this doctor I finally had a diagnosis....
I am a Manic Depressant. I was put on Medication (Prozac Liquid). And told I would have to come back every month for 6 months to speak with the doctor about what I feel.

In the years since my diagnosis, I have had to come to the fact that I am not crazy, that DEPRESSION is an illness, and it is not my fault... I can not just snap out of being depressed. I learned it is going to take time for me to get better. (Up to a year or more). Yet I learned I am not the only one out there. Many people everyday are diagnosed with depression, including people in my own family. I have had some really horrible bad days and I have had some really good ones. I battled post partum depression with all three of my children and been on and off different medications. It is something that I will have to deal with and over come. AND Trust Me!
I WILL Over Come Depression


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